Thank you for your thoughts. It was extremely difficult having to deal with all those losses at the time. And wondering why it wasn't me that went, but them instead? I think it actually ended up making me stronger as a person...I believe I could survive anything now...but at the time it was dreadful. Particularly the first friend I lost because she was so young...and the last, because she was so dear to me. I just couldn't take anymore people dying after that. Enough is enough. I still love people but I cannot let myself get too close to anyone now. :(